So recently in my life I've been feeling very frustrated and stressed and I thought that it was coming from outside influences. My book release, writing book two, my friends, my family, my husband, my dogs...
But none of that was it.
All of it has come from within. I found out today that I am 2.5 points into Obesity on my BMI and honestly? I didn't even realize it.
Sure I'm no model and definitely, not a skinny mini, but obesity?
I never thought that was possible for me. I look in the mirror and I see me, not pounds and scales. But as of recently over the past three years I've gained 50 pounds.
I decided that I really wanted to talk about this as this does affect my journey as a writer and my weight is something I've always felt insecure about. But recently I've come to the conclusion that I don't hate my body. I love my body. I just don't like where it's at right now.
So I'm changing that I made appointments to meet with a doctor, and a nutritionist. Join a local gym, I'm officially taking back my body but not hating it. I refuse to because it only ever makes anyone feel worse about themselves.
i also started singing lessons recently and I have to say that not only is it building my voice but also my confidence. I feel stronger since I started and my love for singing has made me more receptive in recognizing my anxiety. I'm replacing my nerves with passion and I think that its carrying over to other aspects of my life. And I think it’s part of what has made me reevaluate how I’m doing things.
So because I love lists as a writer and my glorious chapter maps I’m building a list of things I want to work on this summer while I write my second book.
1. Schedule: I want to create a schedule that doesn’t create a strict sedentary life behind my desk. I want to feel like I have purpose and my purpose isn’t to be hungry all the time or skip meals to make it to that extra chapter. I want to create a healthier lifestyle.
2. Nutrition: I’m going to be more attentive to what I’m eating, what I’m putting into my body and that’s going to be hard because god knows I love a burger.
3. Me: I’m going to focus on what I love, work on myself and my dreams. Get my education done, work on a book series that I’ve written(!), be good to myself, and positive.
I know none of this is going to happen overnight but I’m here for the journey, and if you’re reading this I’m here for you as much as you are for me by following where I’m headed in life.
I’m excited! I’m ready to lose this weight, lose this anxiety and start a new chapter on myself and my book.
Until Next Time xx